i hate you
i hate you so much
forgetting you feels so gratifying;
when your influence on my life feels forgotten,
i feel whole.
but i can never fully forget .
some of your poison remains in me,
some foul residue seeped off of you into me.
you have a certain sickness; i have its mark on me now,
and so at times im pulled back.
back to who i was when i was with you
i was a wretched, beaten thing when i was with you
and so for making me so contemptible,
i will at least turn some of the foulness back to you.
so remember this:
i will always fucking hate you.